Okay, I realize my blog has been a bit of a downer lately. I promise I'm not having a serious crisis of faith or anything... these little blurbs just seem to be the only "blogworthy" things that come to mind.
That being said, I have had a great deal of anxiety and doubt lately regarding the direction of my life. Getting restless at work, homesick, indignant about my social life... that sort of thing.
Today I had a distinct impression. This doesn't happen to me often. I was thinking about Emma Smith in her early years married to Joseph. Never having seen the plates... being ridiculed by her own father... feeling as if she was somehow unfit in the eyes of the Lord. The 25th chapter of the Doctrine and Covenants is a revelation given to her during this time. He told her not to worry about the things she hadn't seen, but to focus on what He needed her to do.
The chapter is not full of frilly consolations. The Lord simply puts Emma to work. She was given assignments that He knew would help her faith and strengthen her testimony.
Obviously my questions are not the same as Emma's were, but the answer, I believe, is the same. Work. Of course I would love to be told "Hey, here's the man of your dreams and a graduate program!" Instead I realize that I need to stop trying to fill in the blanks and get busy. I've been given responsibilities and can only expect greater responsibility to come.
In order to increase strength in any aspect, an increase in work is required.
Obviously as an Exercise and Sports Science major, this concept is familiar to me. Perhaps I should have thought of that before I said my prayers. :)
Stop worrying and get to work.
9 years ago
